私の人生

Choices

2011-06-15T02:29:00.000+08:00

So many choices you can choose in life... Every single thing u choose have their own consequences.

I hope You'll be alright. :)

A fragrance of humiliation

2011-04-01T15:56:00.000+08:00

When people starts to being nice, sometimes theres a shrimp under the noodle. -.-

Come into my world

2011-03-27T01:39:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i feel like i want to have 'normal life', waking up early in the morning, get proper sleep everyday, go to work or college then go home spend time with family. But i just can't everyday i got home after midnight, can't sleep, online until i fell asleep in front of the laptop. = = I can easily feel bored staying in.

Recently start dancing again, my long lost passion, i feel very me again.. I feel happy :) Few days ago, i celebrated my Birthday at my friend's house, it was simple but i had fun and i really appreciate it. I want to thank him for everything, Thank you baby :*

Try being urself for once :)

2011-01-20T18:05:00.000+08:00

I've heard so much stories about you. How you bring yourself up when im not around. It's what people observe you when you don't realize it.As I said, the world is small and people come and go. Just remember one thing 'karma'.. Stop complaining about others will you?

Hmm.. I miss going to college. :'( too much of enjoying makes me lost track of time. So many plans ahead, i hope things will go on smoothly.

Away

2010-12-22T00:48:00.000+08:00

What's the point of blocking people when the world is so small and we would meet eventually.

There's no point of running when things come crashing fast.

I am still learning and so do others, Im not yearning for your pity anymore, I've grown up.

Maybe you don't understand what's happening but please just let it be for once.

Some things are worth to try. :)

2010-12-21T02:27:00.000+08:00

If only I know what happens next,

I would have been making the right decision all the way,

But having the right decision all the time,

That would sound so boring right?

Encountering a problem might stresses me up,

At least it fill up my life with something new.

I don't care what people want to say about me,

I have a life to live, with people that affect me the most in any ways,

I know what I'm doing with my life, whether you like it or not,

It doesn't matter, because at the end of the day,

I'm the one who will be happy, just don't judge people by it's cover.

I might not be perfect, but I can make you smile :)

living life to the fullest

2010-12-21T01:43:00.000+08:00

Christmas is just around the corner, so Merry Christmas people. :) many events are held these few days, enjoying every second of my time. Im glad that my final exams has been postponed, now I got no worries and I could enjoy the remaining days of the year. I'm quite happy with my life now, many problems solved and hopefully it will remain this way. Getting more and more friends, exciting. :)

Confusion blends in.

2010-12-04T02:02:00.000+08:00

What am i? Im just a simple girl , just like any other girl in the world. Tough life to focus on, lost my way to hold on. Im not special , and never had been one, and never wish to be one. Changing bf make me feel sick, im not a play, giving bad impression to my friends. And now the return of a person make me feel weird. He left for study 2mths and we broke up,and i got a new bf.and now he came back for holiday for a mth and met me, he said that he feel that he's still with me together and then i was like 'WHAA'.. haha just kidding. he asked me to rethink if i wanted to go back to him. but then try to think properly, he'll going back to study sooner or later, its the same thing. and I have a bf now that cares for me and treat me well. what do i have to lose? i dont know.. hahaha

I felt sorry for some people, didnt notice that they are being talked at the back, didnt realise their attitude that troubling people around them. one day, they'll be like a fish out of the water knowing all of those things, and things will be too late to change..

New plan for life~ i guess :D

2010-09-29T00:55:00.001+08:00

2 weeks of holidays gone just like alice fall into a hole. =.= But yeah, i had a blast! I met my bf for the 1st time on that holiday and spend time with him everyday. At first i thought the idea of spending time everyday was a joke but then it turn out to be a great GREAT idea.. :) I met n knew few people, interesting as usual.

My college has started, took my time table, just got 3 days of classes in a week. Sounds great but boring.. At least i could meet my friends and have a laugh .. Im worrying about my babe, Shirley.. Just find me if you need me.. :)

ok ok ok!

2010-08-26T22:55:00.000+08:00

That so called mysterious bf became my friend already.And that happened last month.. :)

Very very very mysterious indeed!!!

2010-07-16T22:54:00.000+08:00

I want to get a tattoo on my back~! it will definitely look gorgeous, an art applied on my own skin.. aww.. cant wait for it. Im trying to enjoy my life for now as much as i could eventhough there are few blockage. First time in having a mysterious boyfriend. I cant read what in his mind, his actions are unexpected. Its almost hree month spending time with him, I dont even know if those are just a dream or reality. Its hard to be diffenreciate for the time being.Weird, weirdness, weirdo....==

Burn The Night Away by There For Tomorrow

2010-05-03T21:29:00.000+08:00

p/s: I Love You~

2010-04-29T22:48:00.001+08:00

Love is in the air.. Feels like I'm dreaming to be able to smile being in a relationship. =) Yes, i admit that Im not really serious with my last beyfriend because Im not appreciated, taken for granted.. huu Hopefully this time will be better, I miss the old days when im in a long term relationship, I really enjoyed it.. Hurmm, maybe me and my current boyfriend still feel shy to face each other, but i believe that things will go on well as time pass by. He make me feel like Im in seventh heaven. Happiness come to me~~!!Haaha

Btw, i felt happy for Ne.. She's acting so weird after she hook up with L-me .. Kinda funny to see her like that, her boyfriend really can make her smile all the time. I don't know la nowadays people. -.-

>.<

guess what?

2010-04-18T23:54:00.001+08:00

I think im gonna give up for now. Felt stupid to watch a person from afar, can't even reach them. Although i got my eyes on you, I'll just be happy because it happen, it's not like its the end of the world. haha I'll move on and meet someone more meaningful to me. Now I know, the feeling of being stupid.. -.- Cut the crap, got outcome tomorrow, i haven't started reading my notes. good luck to me =)

p/s: You'll never know how much i miss you. >.O

I had enough.

2010-04-17T01:14:00.000+08:00

Why d'ya have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you
Must you make me laugh so much
It's bad enough we get along so well
Say goodnight and go

hey, you. Do you know what i felt when you do that most of the time? I always find you when Im down, seek for you, look for you, and even care for you. And you do the same too. But why you have to be someone else when you're easy, free and enjoying? I never forget you whenever i go or do something but you forget me so easily. You will just seek for me when you're down, need company or having problems. You've forgotten me, forgot what i've helped or do for you in life. Do you ever appreciate? Or did you ever realise? I dont give a damn about this little thing actually, it happens many times already, i've already get used to it. I know you very well but you dont know me, no need to hide cause i knew it all. You're not you when you with different friends.

Im not complaining about you, I just dont want you to lost your way somehow. And don't ever forget people around you, of course those who really love you. xoxo

Likey likey~~

2010-04-12T21:27:00.001+08:00

I like you but I don't love you. I like to see you. The way you walk, the way you stare, really caught my attention. Everytime you misscall or text me, I felt very comfortable, and somehow it makes me happy. I don't know, maybe it's just because I have no one to text for now and then you find me most of the day. =)

2010-04-10T17:30:00.001+08:00

These few days, i don't have the mood to go out. Feeling quite comfortable staying at house, doing my boring routines. =) Many things had changed, i hope its a good sign. I miss my friends, i wanna have a laugh with them.. For now, i hardly trust people, because there are tons of faker out there trying to take advantage of other people. haih~~

There's 1 thing i don't quite understand.. I know some people very easily fall in love but do they think about the feeling of people that they fell for. hmmp~

L.I.F.E?

2010-04-09T19:42:00.000+08:00

I am bored!!! SINGLE life is kinda fun but quite boring.. My phone became so silent these few weeks after i broke up.. XD I want to wait for him but i guess he don't need me anymore.. =) so i'll just move on.. I still have my friends with me all the time. ngeee~~ But still, Im not used to single life. hahahah I need someone, TEMPTATIONS!!! Im trying to get used to this, i know i can adapt changes very easily just like what Puton says.. ^^

New L.I.F.E.

2010-03-30T23:57:00.001+08:00

Its been awhile since i didnt post anyting.. =/

Many things happen, and i think my path of life had changed since i broke up.

I've seen many selfishness, egoness, childishness going on..

And yes, my 1st time away from my house on CNY.

Went to Kundasang & Ranau with friends, i mean new friends..

Had a bf by that time but things went wrong and single again.

=( Mid-term is on Sunday, I havent studied for any subject yet. Too much of enjoying my time. XD Im just worried about Malaysian Studies and Contemporary Business subjects.. T_T I never done well on those sub. For two sem i scored A's and B's only, I hope no C's appears this sem, I will be teased by my big brother..==

And also, My birthday on 23rd March, my bebeh made a small BBQ party for me.. Thank you all.. Love u guys. =] And sorry for those people that bring me out at night, i was exhausted..

At tj. aru beach..

Lastly, I NEED A VACATION!! huhu soon perhaps??

2010

2010-01-04T21:41:00.000+08:00

Single life? sounds weird thou.. ^^

2009-10-08T21:26:00.001+08:00

time passed so fast,

and im a college student already? haha

assignments, outcomes, quizzes,

really stressing me out.

Mum's bday this Saturday,

what should i plan?? ~.~'

group photo~~

the other day, went out with them, having so much friends that are different in some way are so much fun rather than just hanging out with the same type of people. [i don't know how to say =.=] Clay always become the photographer and not in the pic with us.

p/s: i miss him >_<.. huhu

Boring days~~

2009-09-24T13:48:00.001+08:00

Yesterday go kk buy something.. So tension stay at home and do nothing, so went out with Clay n dd.. Talk crap all the way.. =.=

tired~~

no comment...

munyit sasat~~~

Actually wanna bring others but cant contact them.. =.=

Memories~~

2009-09-18T21:06:00.000+08:00

sasha, g'ra, me, moniq..

jeff, me, razmil n munyit.. ^^

Hurmm.. suddenly miss dancing a lot.. almost a year didn't dance already.. =(

E-Jat Birthday~!

2009-09-16T10:01:00.000+08:00

Bday boy n Clay

Me, Leyn ,JOng

For sale??

Kelaparan ma ta men

Peace~~

Zan with us

no comment..

blury

lagi blur

got spoiler =..=

group photo.. ( C clay gemuk neh ..XD)

Happy bithday Izzat~!

Ohya, yesterday i saw him, he's back for good? haha^^

=(

2009-09-14T23:02:00.000+08:00

Mon-day.. XD

2009-09-14T21:42:00.001+08:00

I can't sleep these few days.. =( I woke up late and straight away go out after ready, no time to eat.. Soooo hungry owh today, didn't eat anyting till I reach home. Go college and waited Jong, Leyn and Jat finish class then all of us go watch mv. ^^

Where Got Ghost?

The mv was quite funny, but I didn't laugh alot, so moody today, smile pun pura2 neh.. =[ Well, tomorrow suppose to be a special day for me, but he's not here.My result final pun teruk gyla(for me la).

Hmm.. back to today's thing.. After mv, we accompany Clay go Warisan buy shorts, punya lama she testing =.=

Penat leh wait her~

Nothing else to do~

Then, got class at 4.15.. We're late for class as usual =.=.. So sleepy in class, punya syok c Jong sleep.. hahaha The two people behind me lagi la, punya syok bercerita.. Then tiba2 got test, bingung trus. =.=But paling awal siap also .. ^^ So after that, Jong fetch me home, and finally I can eat, eat and eat.. ^^

p/s : tomorrow Jat bday~!

Lost soul...

2009-09-14T03:06:00.001+08:00

Feeling the wind blowing strong,

Wishing that I could hold strong,

Living with the shadow,

Felt lost in the middle of nowhere,

Nights with shallow fretful sleeps,

Losing my strength to stand still.

Mind full with thoughts,

Questions that have no answers,

How can I feel you,

How can I reach you,

How can I bare this,

Without you by my side.

Please show up, even just for once.

Sunday~

2009-09-13T21:22:00.002+08:00

Hohoho... Today i went shopping with Clay after had lunch at Damai.. So bored at home so go gai gai lo .. Since Jat already bought 1 skinny jeans the other day, so we want to have 1 too.. wahahaha This coming Tuesday is his bday( he said de ar), so he want me n Clay accompany him wear skinny jeans to college.. =.= We 1st go cp search for it, and found it but its not really nice, so me and Clay go Warisan continue our search..=| Finally, we found a good one and bought it.. After buying that skiny jeans, we saw some cute shorts.>.

skinny jeans

shorts

org teda dompet.. XD

The most tiring part is when Clay n me go search fo tee's..=.= go here and there, and found nothing.. haha.. Bkin sakit kaki jak.. Then found 1 shop that have ok2 de shirt, pilih baju mau 1 jam, org d kedai pun hairan.. -.- Last2, bought 1 juga, same colour lagi tuh.. Im not gay ar..^^

Ohya, I think at 3am la, I want to find some food at the kitchen, then when Im filling my glass with water kan, suddenly wangi betul ni the kitchen.. I don't know la, direct I tidak jadi makan gong~! wahahhaha Terus I bring laptop up to my room.. =.=" makan sweets oni..

Kyo wa koko made.. ^^

どうすればいいですか？

2009-09-12T23:34:00.001+08:00

Bluring....

A sleepless night in the city,

Mind wandering somewhwere far.

A story that will never end,

Choosed the wrong beginning.

How did I get into this,

Maybe Im too blind to see.

What should I do,

to break this chain.

T_T

Balik Kampung~~ ^^

2009-09-12T22:35:00.000+08:00

Heheh.. today got my cousin's(i guess) wedding at my kampung.. So kira i balik kampung la also at Sugud there.. So funny owh there, when the food are served, all berebut gong~! wahahah Malas i go rebut2, then sit until line clear. >.O... Got 1 auntie wear dress like wanna go funeral neh,panjang lg tue Sudah la very hot today.. =.= I don't know la how she can survive in that outfit.

muka buruk clay~

I foung org gila at my kg.

Clay always takes fugly pic of me.. =.=

Boring gyla~!

Thats all for today.. ^^

Help.....

2009-09-11T21:54:00.001+08:00

I woke up late today, I couldn't get enough sleep coz I keep thinking of my situation. I realised that I might walk into a black hole, if I don't make a move, I will regret it. I don't know why these things comes to mind all of the sudden. Why now? huhu.. For sure, I call Leyn to talk about it and.....

She got no idea how to deal with it.. huhu.. I have to think of a solution ASAP~! Then I call clay to ask her opinion, she say I should wait for the right time to solve it. I feel so stupid.. wahahahahahh XD.... Now im scared to move on, many things happen at the same time. Gimme a break =[ huhu
The pic is when Im talkin to Leyn.. Really bored stay at home whole day, out of cash.. huhu.. Dad, please hurry, come back home, i need money to buy ....... FOOD~! wahahahahah

I just want to have a good life, but I guess it's hard........

Minesweeper

Lame game but I still play it..

I always play it when im bored until bored.. ??

I don't know la~ hehe

back days~!

2009-09-11T14:56:00.003+08:00

I can't believe I will say this but I kinda miss them. Those so called G.G.R. haha. Although we fought a lot end of 2008 but still we used to be best friends. ~Einda, me, Lene, Leyn, G'ra, Jijah, Pat and Ros~ We have many good and bad memories together. Always became the noisy group of lousy girls.. haha Try to think back, I feel funny because we fought for some stupid things that tear us apart. Well, at least we are still friends for now, but not as close as back days. Now all have chosen different path, if we didn't fight, we could be in the same way now, what can I do.. hahah I still remember that a number of us seen ghost in the 'bilik kebudayaan' back stage. wahaha.. All running like orang gila. Then when we went out from the door at the back of the hall, we saw something really hilarious. Pretanded didn't saw it and walk to the corner of the hall and laugh like devil.. wahahahah We saw there's two Form4 guys changing clothes, 1 of the guy is ust wearing underwear only and his face like *OMFG* when he saw us suddenly came out from the door.. wakakakaakakak I still remember his face thou.. =.= Hurm.. Now, im just close with Leyn.. Better than no one right..^^

Blogging mood is back~! i guess..=.=

2009-09-11T02:00:00.004+08:00

Today, i went to college as usual. Suddenly got quiz leh~ nasib la it's easy.. hehe.. Im late for 10 minutes for class but, I was the earliest to get in the class among my friends.. wth.. hahah..All my friends used to be the "early people" on the 1st sem but now, i don't know la.. all late.. XD. After class, go Damai.. On the way to Damai, me,Jong and Leyn debate with Clay, berteriak-teriak tengah jalan until the people in car pun tengok2..Obviously, 3 person wins.. haha Then, go yamcha at 88 there, and Randy came. He bring me, Clay and Leyn go Central. 1st time neh I go there, macam sakai pun ada.. Haha . Then at night, around 8 Randy and Clay came pick me up, then go fetch Diana at Inanam.. Wah, long time I didn't go that area, I think since I end my high school.. -.- After fetch her, go cp again.. haih.. Took some photo sticker *i don't know whats the name of it* and watch them play game . Saw lalazai n friends.. wahahah.. Clay and Leyn create new name for em.. Went Jesselton Point shisha, well, I don't do shisha...wakakakkakakak.. Sempat lagi that Diana muntah at toilet. =.= I wanna pee pun tdk jadi..

hooohoohoohoohohoho~

2009-07-31T23:25:00.002+08:00

i guess this is my 1st blog since i started college.. haha Many things happened on this month n June.. Many of my friends break up with their love including me.. Then after that many friends become emo, so fast touching , i dont know why la.. one by one they become emo all of the sudden. Hmm.. Now im getting to know more people in college, i want to have many friends there but hard to be friends with the girls there because they are like 180 degree of me.. =. = most of them la not all, so i end up getting more boy friends than girl friends.. haha Im really stressed out at the moment, because i have many things to think, i need brilliant ideas.. Think hard Kaoru!!! @..@ next Monday i have to do presentation for my final project, then on Tuesday i have to confirm my partner to join the Mobile Content Challenge and start thinking what im going to create, finally on Thursday, i have to think of a system to show my ideas. Gosh.. So damn busy! Oh yea, after breaking up with him, i feel relief and a lot better.. I can start a new life where i have my own freedom. I kinda like my life now for some reasons.. hehe ps: Dont easily spit out words that u dont mean it.. for example "I'll wait for you".. haha

tee hee..

2009-06-02T22:53:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile i didn't update my blog.. Kinda busy here and not in the mood to write blog.. Startin school next week, so nervous.. haha I hope I'm in the same class with my friends.. I think i will start getting bussier next week.. Hopefully many good things happen.. ^^

Hmmm..

2009-04-24T00:31:00.002+08:00

I like to observe people most of the time, trying to understand them. It's a weird habit but I love it.. haha.. For some reason, I don't really understand why there is some people that like other people to symphatize them.. Are they trying to get attention from other people so that other people care or feel guilty? I don't know but I think it's kinda immature to act like that.. There's a number of people that feel depressed when their friend didn't have time for them. They think that the friends had forgotten about them, they just hoping their friends will find them.. Instead of doing that, why don't they find their friends? Gosh, I don't even know why am I typing this.. I just can't stand watching 1 of my friend always thinks something in the negative way.. It's like that person's life doesn't mean a thing..

Boring~

2009-04-15T14:20:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile i didn't update my blog.. i'm trying to find a job but until now i can't found 1.. haha i wanna study soon but my dad won't let me.. 'purque usted hace estu ami??!!' haha i learn that phrase from my best friend.. 2day, as usual wake up early in the morning, fetch sato to school. do some house work, then go fetch sato again.. huhu went to the superstore buy my fav drinks and some cup noodles.. ^^

Im back!

2009-03-16T19:28:00.002+08:00

finally.. im back from NS.. i miss my home so badly. Life in NS is kinda interesting, i miss it.. Wake up early in the morning and do 'pt pagi', senam seni and senamrobik. Have some bread for breakfast. Got character building class, integrasi, kenegaraan, khidmat komuniti. Did kembara halangan twice, i failed to do the 'monkey rack' twice. haha Not so happy with the wirajaya but still i had a great time. Get to know many friends with different characters. Got so many ceramah that make me sleepy.. And many more........ I have many sweet memories there. Finally.. i miss 'Yam Sa'.. heheh

National Service

2008-12-16T19:00:00.003+08:00

Im leavig soon to Selangor for national service. after the last paper.. I started to miss my friends... I wish i could see them all before i left.. im leaving on 27th at 2 in the MORNING!! I guess i will not have enough time to sleep .. huhu

It's SPM

2008-11-14T15:05:00.002+08:00

The history paper was very hard.T.T.. I try my best to do it... But i'm not sad because i done well on the other paper.. ^^ 5 days more to go and my secondary school student life will end.. I'll miss my school very2 much.. muahxx

Im sick!!

2008-10-24T19:49:00.002+08:00

these few day im really sick.. T.T i didn't go to school today... i feel sorry to ne because i can't accompany her today.. Gommenasai!! 2 weeks to go.. SPM is very near.. need study2 n study.. Hope i will get wel soon..

Da 'day'

2008-10-18T20:10:00.002+08:00

It's my school convocation.. i just bought everything yesterday.. I felt really happy today.. and took many picture.. but there's a few things that makes me feel strange.. I don't know how to say it.. Hope things turn out to be right. ^^

It's ina b'day..

2008-10-10T21:35:00.003+08:00

I feel so sorry i couldn't buy a present for her.. So sorry, mom.. today i go citymall with my friend.. but can't find anything good.. T.T So tired now.. This lately i don't have much time to write blog, so i just can type some short blog only..-.-.

I'm waiting..

2008-10-09T20:04:00.002+08:00

That day will come, i will just wait for it.. On that day, the truth will be spread, everyone will realise many things..

at last..

2008-10-03T17:57:00.003+08:00

My add math project finally done at last.. i should have done it on last Friday but its seems that i'm not in the mood to do it.. haha these few day, my family keep playing mahjong, of course im with them too.. I keep lose to them everday, why?? *sob It's so boring to stay at home especially in holiday.. My mum used to buy those feng shui magazines.. And she says that those who born on the goat year, will have a heaven luck this month..haha that's mean me.. ^^

What a day~~

2008-09-29T18:38:00.002+08:00

2day i go out wit my friends.. it's Jong birthday.. *happy birthday ya It's been a while i didn't go out wit clay, so 2day kinda weird go out wit her.. haha she invite me ss at toilet lagi.. duh =.= I'm finding a perfect dress for my convocation, but it's hard to find it..T.T

Help!

2008-09-25T19:04:00.002+08:00

I'll be graduating soon.. but i still can't decide what i want to do next, i sure want to study but in what course? hard to decide..T.T I want to learn cullinary art and at the same time i also want to study multimedia.. I will not continue so early next year, because i need to go to PLKN for 3 month.. that mean i still have time to decide.. *hope can decide it soon

Quotes.

2008-09-24T15:42:00.000+08:00

...Love is not loveWhich alters when it alteration finds,

Or Bends with the remover to remove.

O, no! It is an ever-fixed mark,

That looks on tempests and is never shaken.

It is the star to every wandering bark,

whose worth's unknown,

although his height be taken.

-- William Shakespeare